it has been more than a year since i last posted. haha. i dunno why im posting now but i guess i just need to pen(type rather) down some of my thoughts. i don't think anyone will notice it, but its ok :)
Its like wow, time really flies. Many things have changed, inevitably. Honestly, this year is probably the worst year in my life. haha. Most likely due to the stupid decisions that i keep making. lols. Like my school. Not like i had much of a choice. But I think its my fault too. I just can't seem to accept the fact that i ended up there. Life has never been so empty before, everyday is like a routine, just keep going and never stop. Seriously, i have no idea why i study so hard. Sure, its for my future. This year i really pia-ed from the start and i think i got in the top 10%. But the happiness i get is only temporal. I only did it cos i had to. I can't help looking back, to the sec. sch days which were full of fun and laughter.
Its really sad because the people whom i used to be so close to seem to be so distant now. Its now really hard to just talk to them. So i prefer to bottle up my thoughts and ended up pushing the people around me away. i have no idea why but i just can't help it. Sorry if i have upsetted anyone, which i must have. aish!
but of course there are moments of happiness. Thanks to those 2 people who accompanied me to supper for quite a few days. They really made me forget about my troubles and just live in that moment :) and my mum too. i think she's the only person who understands me the most and i really <3 her
Im sure my problems are just minor ones as compared to others, so.. i'll move on and continue to live :)
i think its going to be another year before i post again..hehe xD
